It was Friday, January 15th, '21. I was playing at an outside venue (I'm a lead singer in a rock band, believe it or not! ha!). I was singing really well because I was actually comfortable that night - as it was cold enough for me to wear a big, flaring jacket and thick jeans.
I remember specifically thinking about all of that as I was hitting some (usually) difficult notes. You see, I didn't have to think about my stomach sticking out when people took pictures or videos. I didn't find my thoughts going to my legs and wondering how they looked. Everything was COVERED! I could just focus on my job; the singing. Entertaining. And I was having fun doing so. I actually thought, "I'm having fun tonight".
That's when the sky opened up unexpectedly and down it poured!
We were all scrambling to cover speakers, mics, gear, etc. I ran to a speaker to get a cover onto it but the brick below my feet was already so slippery; I FELL.
I should have been able to keep my balance, yet I couldn't. I should have been able to spring back up, but I didn't. It was like a slow-motion ROLL around the ground! Eek!
When I finally got back up, I just didn't feel right.
When I returned home that night, I took a long, hot bath with Epson salt in it.
The next morning, I was extremely sore. I was in tears. I felt like I was failing myself.
I had spent the past 3-1/2 years organizing my life. Who I am. My business. My finances. My children. My personal world. I had no idea how much I needed to organize the relationship I had with MYSELF; my health. And that included of course, food.
I finally had enough.
I reached out to a family member who has been a coach for 2B Mindset for 3 years now. I trusted her. She is 9 years older than I, is a very successful (and brilliant) business owner, a very busy, beautiful woman AND understands the effects of menopause (I am now post-menopausal at 50).
Eileen and I have talked about her health journey at least twice prior to this conversation. I was never ready to commit/be serious about my wellness. Yet, I was DRAWN to and truly LOVED watching and reading her posts on social media. She was relentless! :) Always posting pics of all of the food she was eating! Still enjoying her wine at night - treating (not cheating) herself - still traveling - still living! And all the while, maintaining her 30 lb weight loss for 3 years! (btw, Eileen lost the 30 lbs in less than 3 months!) Ah-mazing.
I'll never forget telling her my weight and her immediately replying (very nonchalant), "So you're looking at losing 20 to 30 pounds, right?"
WOW. THAT was amazing. THAT was liberating. She didn't tell me I 'already looked good' or that I 'didn't need to lose a lot'. She knew exactly where I needed to be. 2B. I finally had real hope. I had been thin all of my life but once The Meno came around, I was gaining - even when I would exercise and "eat right". I wanted 2B fit. I needed 2B healthy. I wanted 2B mindfully joyful and feel super SEXAAA. After all, this is supposed 2B the best time in my life! LOL Right?!
I talked with my partner after my phone conversation with Eileen because I really needed him to understand MY mindset and the deep emotions surrounding my choice to try this program. He had recently watched me ready for a gig and saw me in tears when I had a melt-down. "I hate how I look in this outfit. I HATE when people take pictures!" He just hugged me. He always tells me I'm beautiful and no matter my weight - or my melt downs - he loves my soul. Yet I needed his support and his 'green light'. And I got it. THAT mattered equally to me as my own decision. I remember his words, "You're so beautiful inside and out but if you want to do this for YOURSELF, I will support you 100%. We've got this." :)
Eileen helped me set up my monthly plan and I couldn't wait to start organizing - my pantry, my grocery list!
I watched as many videos that day as I could before heading to the grocery store. While there, I took my sweet time. Two hours at least, looking at things. I realized I didn't need to go to the "center isles" - only around the perimeter of the store! Veggies first. (Veggies most!) - You'll get used to and LOVE those words. Trust me.
I began drinking as much water as I needed, personally - pertaining to my weight. I could NOT believe how much water MY body needed. Maybe that's where a lot of my pain and 'fibro flare-ups' were coming from....lack of water. ??
When I got home from the store (I spent $200), I put all of the groceries away and was overwhelmed with joy and hope. I immediately noticed all of the colors on my counter and in my refrigerator. And I suddenly felt empowered.
I'll never forget my first 'meal'. It was lunch; grilled cheese. But not the usual, boring grilled cheese. No sir! The bread was sprouted grain (one I was already purchasing). The cheese was Gouda (my fav!). It also contained a little Dijon, a tomato, roasted red pepper (I just threw in the oven while putting groceries away) and arugula (who knew?!). No butter - just a bit of EVOO (Extra Virgin Olive Oil) in the pan. HOLY YUMM! It was so good! Although my Italian mind was fighting me the whole way (only a 1/4 cup of cheese? This cannot be enough), it was actually WAY MORE than I probably needed! Totally satisfied. Excited to try more and to learn more ways of cooking - of dining out.
Sunday, January 17 - only one full day into my new 2B Mindset and I couldn't wait to weight myself. (Who EVER has said THAT?!?). Although I told myself to be gentle, I showed I was DOWN already 2 pounds!! Again, hopeful - empowered! It made me feel good enough to WANT to get outside and walk - so I did! 4 miles!!!!! (Who IS this girl?!).
Fast forward to this writing - February 27, 2021. 6 weeks into my new, healthy 2B Mindset.
I am down:
1.5" in my chest
1/2" in my arms
2" in my waist
1.5" in my hips
2" in my thighs!
1.5" in my belly area
Best part? I'm not focusing on my stomach any longer. In fact, I have looked at it in a loving way since day 1. After all, that's where my four babies were formed. I'm learning gentleness AND health.
My hair is growing - different. Hard to explain. Just looks and feels BETTER.
My skin. OH MY GOODNESS. Glowing.
And no bloating. Crazy weird.
I will continue to update you on my own, personal progress. But I will tell you this now ~ grocery shopping is much simpler. LOL ;)
If you'd like more information and/or to join me - YOUR coach - email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Let's get you there too! What do YOU want 2B? How do you want 2B? I promise to journey WITH you along the way. Let's DO THIS!